My LiFe

2008-07-29T05:16:00.000-07:00

~ Been thinking quite a lot since the past few days ~
~ All those agony and happy memories ~
~ Miss the funny first date where i bought the wrong movie tix ~
~Ur funny expression of scolding me stupid ~
~ All the stupid and lame jokes that burst our tummy ~
~ The first time we argue ~
~ The fun and disturbance of our class about us ~
~ Those efforts i put in and the things i done for you ~
~ The first time you lie to me ~
~ All the empty promises you made ~
~ All the things that you confidently say will not do but not ~
~ Treating you good but end up seeing you walking away ~

~ All this make up part of my life ~
~ The reasons that make me much stronger ~
~ No more repeated mistake ever ~
~ Looking at the importance of my future ~
~ Thinking of what I am going to do in Life ~
~ Someday i will deserve what I should achieve after all the UP & DOWNssss ~

2008-07-20T06:51:00.000-07:00

~ My Nephew ~

He is so cute.... For no reason he will like to punch and kick in the air... Must be because he is my brother son. Lol... He love to watch wrestling.. Wahahaha...

~ Snapshot of our gang ~

After the long steamboat section everyone was quite tire and shag out in QQ room.. lol...

2008-06-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

~ What is Friend ~

Friend is someone to share burdens.

Friend is someone who you willing to share secrets with.

Friend is someone when you are feeling down yet be there with you.

Friend is someone that doesn't need to meet all the time but,

just a How are you once awhile is more than enough to show that you care.

2008-05-24T12:50:00.000-07:00

Been quite irritated seeing people who keep on whining about their Love Life.... If whine once awhile is alright as i tin it wil be normal. However, if continuous whining about it saying shag la feeling down la is really pointless. I had been through that kind of feeling as well. So sometime i really can't stand it. Can you just STOP WHINING LIKE A PUSSY is sometime what i feel like saying. If you are really so troubled it is also your own fault as you know this is what you choosen to do.

Life have so many choices and paths and not only one. If our life is only about whining, this tell us that Life is never been good. So just let it go and take a new path. Why keep yourself stuck into all this sorrow. If letting go is the KEY to free all the sorrow away then why not. Holding on all the hard times and expect something from it is no big deal. Even if we get happiness from it, all those hard times you been through will make you feel very tire to go on eventually and nothing but fading.

~ Life is just like a mountain ~

~ Up the hill, down the hill ~

~ It is so hard to climb ~

~ But once you climb to the top of it ~

~ BEAUTIFUL scenery awaits you ~

2008-05-19T10:48:00.000-07:00

~ Is Love a torturing things ~
A simple term that most people tend to make it Complicated. Complicated will lead to Hurting,

Why can't people just sit down and think what is it that they really want from the relationship and do they really love each other? If the love come from only one side then just stop it and not carry on with this pointless relationship.

Few way of a Bastard:
1) Hit on new girls behind the back of the GF
2) No feeling for GF and Hit and run !!
3) Beat GF or even spit on them

If love tend to fade then please do something about it...

Loving someone is really to be there helping and supporting each other all the time. Supporting their decision made instead of stopping them. Encouragement is also very important when one has really decide on what they wants to do..
Besides, being happy together is the most important things. If 2 person are together but due to some problems and make it hurtful for both side all the while, such relationship should really end it earlier rather than hanging or clinging on futhermore. As time goes by, their love will tend to fade and will be hard to return to how it is in the past.
Another kind of love is to let go and allow one to pursue for further happiness. When one really let go, they will go into a new path where they will find their new happiness. Just like travelling from country to country. People will experiences different kinds of feeling and different kind of loves for the country. If things always remain in a straight lines and nothing can be done then just dump it because nothing will change even if you do anything or nothing.
Someone should stand up and do something like starting a new graph full of increment or decrement. That is Life....!! Someone have to make a decision eventually. Maybe a Yes or No. Avoiding and waiting will lead to higher chance of getting hurt or worse still nothing but silent....... Anyway, most important thing still just do what you want and what you desire for... Listen deep down in your heart and follow your heart and not lie to yourself. If not, nothing but regrets will come after you. Life can only live once so do everything with no regrets. !!!

2008-04-29T13:07:00.000-07:00

Was browsing through some our my old pictures and happen to look at all the past photos we had all taken together.... After looking through then realise that time really flies... It just feel like it is all still so new to me but in fact it had been quite a long time since we known all of us in primary schools... Was really glad that all of us are still as close and our bond is still so strong... Without any of us, i guess in my life it will feel some sort of incomplete... =] Our group are always together since a long time in every special ocasion as well. Be it is christmas, countdown, chinese new year and other other day... Hope our groups will nv part and always stay close together always... Really glad to have all of you with me all these years... Cheers...

~My BDay 2007 ~

~ At Siloso Beach ~

~At Roxy ~

~ At Liquid Kitchen (Siglap) ~

~At Scarlet Hotel ~

2008-04-24T09:01:00.000-07:00

oh well... for the whole day today i was at home slacking eating slping... i feel like i am a useless person at home today... lol... well nvm... tml will be another day to work.. so slack 1 day might be good as well.. can also save money...

Yesterday went out with her after working.. was working at 545 am in the morning so meet after work... =] Went for movie at Cineleisure.. We watch definitely maybe because heard from my heard that forbidden kindom is not nice so nv watch.. but definitely maybe is quite nice.... after the movie we went to national museum and was quite amaze with the exhibition there bec the entrance gt an quite interesting statue... lol... and she ask mi a very weird question.. omg.. is all guy like that.. lol.. so funny... after looking at the exhibition we wants to go art museum but was a bit too late because it was already close.. oh my.. well can go again next time.. haha.. then after that actually want to go Long bar but end up we went to chill at TCC bugis and was slacking and crapping over there.. so well it was quite a nice time i guess.. wahahaha... Sunday same day off again so well maybe might meet up again.. wahaha...

2008-04-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

Was really slacking at home the whole day yesterday only until the nite when i went to sun way son 1 month celebration and when i reach there with qq was already so late that most of them already went home le then was like so pai sei... omg... lol...

After that was as usual, meeting my Prata Gang... lol... was sitting down again and gossip alot of things.. but this time round my idea of backpacker really influence all of us... Now we are really going to plan a small project and will be going to start as soon as we can... If it become a successful plan, it will contribute to part of our income i guess... =] After the prata session, again i went Mark house and TON... hahaha...

Yeah~ Wednesday is coming... will be meeting someone out again after my work.. So hope it will be a great day as we already plan where to go le... wahahha... just hope i can get to slp tml because will be working 0545 morning again on wednesday... But anyway i will stay awake wan.. wahahaha..

2008-04-18T09:46:00.000-07:00

oh my nephew is 5 day old liao... is still so small that i dun even dare to carry him up... oh my... haha.. but anyway his name is Austin and is so cute and i am sure he will be damn handsome in future.. lol...

~ Austin ~

Very cute right... haha... back to me again... well the last few days was rather free and most of the time is at home and one of the day i went to chill out with my gangs at Martini Firm located at Mohamud sultan there.. Though it was quite ex for all the martinis but it was quite nice and the layout of the shop is quite different as well. At there day somemore is only us and no other customer... wahahaha...

~Martini Firm~

The last day of my off day i went to MacRitchie with one of my working colleague... It was really quite an adventure but it was fun.. A lot of funny things encounter... Such as before the start of our trail we already saw these groups of monkey there... Was thinking whether we will be attack anot.. lol.. so funny... and the way to the tree top walk is really up and down... but still not as hard as i imagine as when we reach the tree top it really worth all our effort...

~ HSBC Tree Top Walk ~

~ Snapshot of Pam ~

There are also alot of nice view over there and too bad i do not have any good camera to take nice pictures... In future i will definitely get a good camera as this will be part of my career...

~ Nice and clear reflection of reservoir ~

~ Look like a beach

~ Nice view of leaves from the trees ~

2008-04-11T10:37:00.000-07:00

is a boring day at work currently again... So my face is getting better as compared to that day... Been really taking care of it.. oh my... wash wash wash... lol....

Oh my i am going to be uncle soon !!! My brother wife is giving birth soon... Sudden when a baby pop out in my house i will kinda feel so weird and different.. But it gonna be fun for my whole family i guess... hahaha... Come to your uncle baby !!! wahahaha....

Was really working working and free time was staying home to rot all the while... lol... Tin next week will be even worse as i gt more off days... So probably will start my exercising again or go tanned... Feel like asking you out but kinda feel that u will not be free... I know what you thinking somehow... so i understand... So when you want then we meet out again ba... Hope someone nice will be there for you as well and everything will go smooth on you.. =]

2008-04-07T02:37:00.000-07:00

oh my... my Face OUTBREAK !! holysh@t ~~ Been slping almost 2 to 3 hr daily for the past week... Tin really should rest more liao to recover... lol... Alright, happy bday to miss qq.... hope everything for her will be happy and smooth...

Was working earlier morning just now again and was really so sianz... Guess come to tin of it, i am really working very hard for the past few months... Never really got any time to relax myself.... Hope if i still got the time i can go overseas again with all my buddies and to really relax and not tin of anything at all...

Gotten to know something really sad ytd morning after hearing it from my frenz... No matter what happen i will always be there .... this kind of thing is really beyond our reach... so hope you will stay strong... Dun wish to see you unhappy... Prefer you smile and cheeky laughter... =p

2008-04-04T21:26:00.000-07:00

Yoz yoz yoz.... Finally finish all my days of the 0545 am shift of works work... is damn shag seriously... lolz... For next week it will become another way round as i will be working at 1715 pm shift... lol... really make my life up and down sia... oh my..

Recent day i was just wondering why all my new frenzs that i knew is trouble by similar things... Is something that i really cant help and cant change them in the way they think... It will be quite hard.. but wat i can do is to be there for all of you when u all are in trouble and in need of listening ears... haha... Because i really can understand the feeling after been through a few times of the experiences myself.... So if i can be of any help i will be happy as well to see you smile..=] Pray for you all to forget all the unhappiness and stay happy...

2008-03-29T01:14:00.000-07:00

Was working right now but since it was so free is time for my update again.. wahhaha... Recently my job just change to a new agency although the pay was 9 per hour but the schedule is really crap. 5 day of 0545 to 1445 shift.. is really OMG !!!! guess i will be stone for the whole of next week as i alway shortage of sleep in this shift. lol...

In recent days, i was quite surprise of myself. After that night, there is someone there that really make me feel quite relax and comfortable with. All the troubles really seem to be gone and stopped thnking anymore. As my previous post saying that it really pull me down. Now i still sort of troubled about that. Really hope i will be relieved of this soon after paying off everything which will take probably a couple of months.. Oh my... So hope to get to meet you more often though... and really thanks for everything and i hope you will live well as well and not tied down by your own problem... I will only tell you that i will always be there to help you with everything. Hope sooner or later your thinking of life will change because i am sure it will be much better of you and will live happier.

"Am I the one for you" i also cant answer you question or even yourself because no one will know what will happen eventually. Maybe i might be gone anytime... who knows... but your that day appearance really brighten up my life so i hope we can stay this way as for now.. =]

Often my friends will tell other gals that i am a good catch... Hmmm... what i can is i really not as good as what everyone things.. I gt quite alot of my own problems that most people dunno and i dun wish to tell. Besides toward relationship ppl might tin i am a good bf but in fact i am not... So pls stop saying that i am a good catch because at times i will really feel uneasy with that.

2008-03-16T12:13:00.000-07:00

Oh my.. my life is serious full of challenge.... Love life was already rather unlucky and now yet again even i buy something also... Now seriously in deep trouble now but guess will work hard for this mistake and get it repay to all my friends.... Oh my... Been really troubled and cant sleep well at all... At this point of time i even receive something that was even more shocking which is my pes in army... i guess i was really so surprise... One incident is enough for me and now yet another one... My burdens is really getting me down... Just hope there will be "someone" who is here that can be there for me...

2008-03-05T23:49:00.000-08:00

Been quite awhile since i last wrote in my blog.
A new start and a new begining. Everything seemed to new again and no more unhappiness...

Recently just went to bangkok with a groups of my frenzs. Although it may be tiring due to all the intensive walking but it was still rather fun. Especially on the tuk tuk which was so funny. Paying lesser and the driver will drive faster is the first time i ever heard of.. wahaha..

Pictures of my hotel rooms (39th story):

Wanting to make u laugh, and disturb you, protect you and talk to you is always on my mind. But somehow i also dun expect much from you because i noe i couldn't interfere your life and what you feel about me i noe nothing about that. But seeing you happy i am happy too. But anyway, things will eventually change.. this is what i believe. haha.. Gonna work all the way now. feel so sianz.. But next wednesday going mambo....!! Hope can kill my shagness.. lol..

2007-12-02T11:54:00.000-08:00

Been feeling quite down lately due to some problems with her... but i guess this is the final already... so my gut feeling is always correct all this while... all my feeling became the truth.. and i really admit to my life.... been really quite unlucky since my life starts....

Nothing went smooth in what i did... in love life i guess i really disappoint in myself... I only bring mistake, stress and unhappiness to her.... But because of all these i really meant to change it all just for her and i am really trying very very hard... but i guess there isn't any more chance for me... she had already know what she really wanted in her life and i guess i am happy for her....

This is life.... People will always take things for granted when they have it...But they dun treasure it and dunno the importance. After they lose it then they will really realise it and regret it.... it is very common i guess...

Though our relation just don't worth anything but she really played an importance roles in my life... She made me realise how much love can do to me... I used to always tin that loving someone will always have a limit to me... but i am wrong... If my limit is 100% then i really reach 120%... I just scare of losing her and wanting her to be safe and protected.... All we did and the time we spend together will be remembered always... thanks... Just a couple more weeks will be our 1 year le... i will never forget the day... Planning to bring you somewhere really very very nice... Nice view, nice lighting and nice drinks... But i know is impossible now... Been frenz is a good thing but for our case i guess we will eventually become just hi - bye frenz... this is what i feel... haiy...

My concern of you, my smell, my tu tu de zhui, my saying of ppl sha gua and even my pinching of ppl nose i tin cant reach you anymore...

I might taught her some lesson as well and maybe some self improvement... but since i am just a mistake in her life, it should be just erased... and she can really get her own happiness...

Different people have differnt kind of life... just like for some people, they can just spend a dollar and who noes they will become the next millionaire in Singapore... And some me i will be categorise somewhere really extremely bad.... Really... Even my own health also... So what can i do.... i just feel like saying:

I really love you alot alot.... and all these times is my most happy part of my life... And i never regret all the things i did for you... Hope you will understand... if you need me someday just come back to me.... but i guess there will never be this day...

2007-11-09T07:24:00.000-08:00

So your feeling for me really worth these much only?

After all the hard times we had together and the happy moment we spend together?

Why izzit only me that you will treat me differently?

What did i ever do wrong ?

Did i really make u unhappy with anything that i do to you?

What do you exactly want from me now?

As a friend Yes i can treat you as a friend but how about you?

If you ever treat me as a friend I just want you to be honest to me izzit that hard?

I had been really trying hard and yet you cant seem to understand... When you told me in the past now is all opposite now... what else can i do... Did you know although i am not there to concern you but in fact i am secretly doing some things for you.. had you ever wonder how much pain i been through... not just in relationship.... i myself have my own problems... is a very personal problem which no one knows... i also hope that i can be someone normal.... I been struggling with my life these past few years already... these pain is much much harder than what you had been through definitely.. These problem really made me feel that I cannot be the one for you.. you deserve someone normal who loves you.. so that you will be much happier... I just afraid to lose you...

Life is always complicated... Just a simple thing like you like someone, that someone like you, they can be together... but in real life confusion led to all the complication... no matter what you do, just know what you really want deep down in your heart and make a choice... After which dun ever have regrets.. Even with regrets life still have to move on...

2007-10-16T09:29:00.000-07:00

Been working alot quite lately also and was so stress up... Finally monday and tuesday i am off and will not be so tire again... Was at home the whole day on Monday watching some shows and also to rest myself up... Went jogging during the evening and feel more alive after that...

On tue today, i went back to school for the stupid briefing... anyway i already predict it.. but still went over... After that rush to town to find my frenz... and we go walk walk around cityhall and went for a tea break at changing appeitite and ordered my favourite fried onion.. so nice... haha.. then i also bough my shoe bag which i need and also a very interesting book..After dinner went to a pet shop and saw this really very cute rabbit.. is the cutest i have seen so far... the rabbit have a very gloomy face but cute... he nv change the gloomy face at all for a very long time..and doesn't seem to like to move also.. so cute..will upload the photo soon...

Thursday will be meeting my working frens someone to gather and gossip together... so will look forward to it but will be tiring after my work i guess...

These few day just suddenly will tin of someone but i noe i have already let go... this is very common to everyone ba... Once there is a new person appear, somehow the old memory will be fade and will not tin as much le and will be kept hidden into some place in our heart... Somehow someone right might have appeared... but will see how things goes and get to know more...

2007-10-10T09:14:00.000-07:00

Went to work at harbourfront today.. was the first time to work there... went there and i realise i was like the weird one.. bec we are having a promotion which is the lucky draw thingy.. and visitors will need to pick a card from the box and i was the one always opening the box.. lol.. so funny.. and was really very boring during the work and end up smsing my frenzs and disturb them.. haha..

Went dinner with soo li after work and end up talking alot on fashion and about us changing our images and our dressing... so funny just cant imagine putting me into a type that wear skinny jean, vast and long sleeve shirt, berms and sneaker... so unlike mi plus me wearing my specs.. haha.. must be very new to all of my frenzs if i dress up like this.. but i might consider trying... haha..

During work me and my colleague talk abt batam and they said they intend to go mayb during the last weeks of the month... i might join them bec mayb can shop and see see and also to relax myself from all the stress perhap.. haha..

Me and hp is over a month le... and now i am already moving on with my normal life le... haha... i find that i might still feel something toward someone else... something different from other gals... and i am 100% sure i am not taking her as a replacement... Though she is single but i guess she might not interested in me also anyway... Alot of guys might be after her i guess and i will not be the one she wants... mayb she fallen for someone else also le so too late le ba... only can ask her to stay happy i guess...
~end~

2007-10-08T09:01:00.000-07:00

Been rather busy with my work recently and was really tired... My MP training will start tml again.. so tin i will be rather stress with coping all this together le.. this time round for my MP will really need to learn alot of new stuffs and hopefully we can digust it soon...

Despite of the stress, but still gt some time to enjoy and relax abit ba... went to meet my botak frenz benny, qq , jeff and his gf on sat and we went ps to slack and chill out at the rocky pizza since it was the less crowded one.. but the pizza taste not bad actually.. haha...

On sun after work i went to meet one of my frenz.. been quite long since we last meet le ba.. it was quite funny bec during our date always encounter some funny things. Like the buy wrong ticket de incident really make mi so pai seh... and this time round when we bought our food and then the person told us to change seats and we end up isolated in one corner... lol... den we crap alot while eating.. after that we walk around and i bought her to the fountain of wealth..was the first time to bring a gal there.. guess i might be very stupid afterall.. been thinking quite sometime but end up cant of of any nice places to bring her to.. but anyway will plan harder next time.

~Fountain of wealth~

Today went meet her breakfast ... and thanks for the gifts.. really appreciated.. will treat you a nice meal next time round ya.. haha.. after went back to work.. so sianz.. keep raining and there were no much ppl.. end up help to fix the stupid computers. and this is not the first time.. was fixing the printer and the computer at orchard branch last time round.. looks like i must ask the boss to pay mi more for fixing it.. muahaha.. ~end~

2007-09-29T12:06:00.000-07:00

Been a few days since i last write again... it is a brand new beginning for me now as i beginning to put down really alot of things and ready for new one hopefully... =]

Well, been rather busy working these few weeks and really quite happy working here and i also get to know quite alot of frenzs. So sad to say many of them will be returning to HQ for work and cant see them le... BUt hope still can meet them out during free time...

Feeling rather bore next few months as 2 of my best frenzs is botak now and will have lesser company and also lesser prata session for us.. so sad... but still will get the chance to meet them also.. anyway just went for a movie together just now after my work and bday party for nick... and went to watch a gay show which is quite funny and nice... no regret watching it... hahah.. but was really tired after the movie .... out the whole day... and rite now i am sitting here and posting my blog.. oh my.. lol... lucky no work tml ... so can relax and enjoy abit... thinking of wat to do tml also... still deciding whether to look for my frenz finish work... perhap tml then i will decide.. going to slp liao update again soon ~

2007-09-18T09:41:00.000-07:00

Been rather busy this few days due to alot of fam trip and work which makes me really very tired at times. But however somehow this will be good also ba at least it will stop me from thinking of anything.. haha..

During these few days of fam trip i really get to know more frenzs and even start to tok to more of them. Today i even went strolling with one of the gal along the city areas and tok quite alot i guess and quite fun also ba at least got ppl to accompany mi till my frenz come and meet mi...

Today was so unlucky where the things i wanna buy is all different prices now and i haven found any bags that i like so far.. But during last weekend, i bought my card holder which cost mi a bomb and 2 polo tees which is simple and cheap... haha.. so budget.. oh my..

BUt anyway tml will be going to changi for my trip and i always wanted to go changi museum which i tin is really meaningful for us to visit and know more about it.. And after the trip it will be a long day for mi as i will be working till 1030... haha.. so it will be 13 hours of work.. holy sh*t.. haha... so good luck tml den.. jia you.. and dun tin much i hope...

2007-09-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

Went to clark quay with my colleague and went to alot of places and it was quite fun and taken a few photos with my phones haha... Went to ivory restaurant as last stop and we really have good foods and drink over there... The ambience was really good and tinking that it was a nice place to chill out... and another place might be the pump which have live band in there and it was nice too.. however tin there are really many nice places around... tml night i will continue again and this time round we will go clubs... haha.. However still troubling about what to wear because in the morning need to go on a heritage tour till afternoon and continue my outing at night... so busy... omg...

~Choon Yen and Mi ~

~Florence , Mei Yan and Me~

~Yock Sian and Me~

~Florence and me~

Went office training today and saw really alot of new internship student in my workplace.. and there are 19 of them so many... 18 are from the same school as me and only one is from ngee ann and she look so quiet so i went talk to her and now i had another new frenzs... yuppy... Went movie after that and was feeling really very tire.... so tin will slp earlier today.... keke.. =]

2007-09-08T12:39:00.000-07:00

Was working afternoon shift today and somehow still as usual crap around with the mangement people and some new comers. haha.. It was quite fun and we were suddenly talking about dirty things and cui li face was so stun and shock... so funny and after that choon yen suddenly talk about her bad experiences on her mrt and bus journey... it was really gross... wahaha... especially the digging nose wan... omg ... wahaha...

Finally time flies and i ended work and went to H.I.G.H to celebrate tze pin bday and i sudden feel emo and drank 2 bottle of beers.... somehow really get affected by someone and really miss that someone...

Mayb i may seem to be alright but somehow just feel sad... just really hope she understand somehow and not regretting of her choice ba... like i say i shall make a choice... though some part of mi really hope she will stop mi and choose mi... but tin not possible at all... after been through all this with her and if her thinking is dun wan unfair and dun wan me suffer then is really selfish thinking and all these we been through is just like nothing to her... haiy... No matter how selfish and how stupid your decision mayb , i will always respect as long as you are happy... This is the last and the least that i can do for you... My hearts really hurts to end this... you know... You are the only girl that i love these much in my life. I can swear that i never cheated on your feeling... It has really been happy for me to know you.... The day we spend during new year eve, valentine day especially... feel really happy and delighted when see you smile and touch by my presents... Feel really glad that I had made it for you only... I nv regrets loving you at all... Just hope you can stay happy... take care of yourself ...sorry cant be there for you anymore...

2007-09-06T11:22:00.001-07:00

Today was my fan trip with my frenzs accompany by our boss. Actually i meet my other 3 frenzs to go together but end up we have 7 people and this make our journey there to the zoo more fun. While in the bus we also talk alot of stuff.

The feeling ever since i last been to zoo is so much different. Now it really has alot of things and new attraction but one suggestion which is to bring your own drink bec the drinks there is really expensive. I small bottle of pokka tea will cost more than 3 buck. OMG !

~ Very cute animal that i like ~

The trip were rather enjoyable and our groups really was quite fun to be with from what i feel. After the half day of walking we went to the buffet dinner. But is not really that nice but i like the cakes though.. lol. After dinner one of the my colleague join us and we talk alot also ba during the trum ride and journey to the night safari. Haven seen her for about 2 weeks i guess. haha..

So afterall it was quite fun but tire also. Went dinner with my gangs and dunno why suddenly i feel so emo... Probably tire or just mayb tin of someone else.. Thinking of what she is doing now and what she is thinking now.... Anyway i just cant guess the ans ba..

Tml is my off day again... and again i dunno what to do during the day and who shall i ask to go out with.... anyway just have fun is good enough i guess. so anyone will do... =]

2007-09-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

Been a while since my last post. An brand new looks and thanks to the designer.
Ever since my last post, really alot of things happen and mostly is all unhappy things.
Currently most of it has already solved like my best frenzs prob with his relationship and i know he was really hurt and does not want it to happen either and since now it is solve so hope he will feel much better and live happily ya.

For my prob, i always used to think that without her i sort of can't move on and always will tin alot and end up get hurt. But after all this incident which i been through, and somethings that i did wrong to and my experiences my frenzs had, i realise i just need to move on with my life and not continue like this. Staying like this nothing wil change and also in relationship it take 2 hands to clap. So all this while i am only the one clapping. Since there is only one hand so it will fail. So if i tin she really care about mi and the relation with me, she will contact mi or watever also. Because i believe in these modern days not all things must start from guys. If she insist guys take initiative then i only can say too bad.

Times will always be moving same goes my feeling. Although i really cant bear to end like this but i tin is really good for you also since you always care for him and there for him.Eventually i am not a good person like him so just continue with him. Like i say i shall make a decision for you since this is what you want afterall. Just hope you will be happy and dun regret thats all. wish you and him all the best. Please take care of yourself. Really happy to be with you all these times.

~ My working frenzs ~

~ Gifts from my working frenzs ~

These few weeks, i been working quite often and get to know alots of new frenzs. All of them are very nice person and nice to talk to. And actually i found one of them who is a really nice gal and feel comfortable with her. Get to know her more during working hours and by sms. Quite happy enough. Seeing her cheerful smile i also feel really happy going to work. Hope can someday date her out if possible though i noe is impossible. Jia you ~

Looking forward to tml outing to the zoo and night safari with my working de groups.

2007-05-02T07:29:00.000-07:00

ToDay is an OrdiNary day to work as usual... Such a boRing day today... Me and My frenzs are doing nothing until our meeting start and after that we started planning to do our project and next week we will have to present to them what we have learn.. haha... So gooD luCK to Us !!

After all... i tin i just cant do what i plan ... I really cant put down everything... So last 2 day I went to meet her... Everything was back to how was were and i actually is quite happy le... Thought I may not be the one she really need, i am willing to be the man behind her back to support her and make her happy... That will be enough for mi i guess... I am a sha gua rite...

Ppl always say sha ren you sha fu... Y am i not that sha ren ne... haha... tin i guess too much le... k la.. nth much to say also le... hoping next week to reach faster ba so it will be another meet her day...haha... and also hope nth will happen between us now... =p

2007-04-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

Yoz yoz yoz.... So fast i am here to write again le... muahaha.... Now i am feeling much better de... after the previous post i actually outbreak... omg... i cant believe it myself either... so sudden and actually is my first time to cry for a girl... lolz... so throw face sia... lucky my er ge nv see if not he sure laugh... haha...

Been doing the whole day of exercise and staring in blank to make myself feel better ytd... and during night time went movie with my frenz and they also console me for most of the time... Thanks mans...

Though i keep saying what i need to do but i seem hard to do it... in the end i still pick up my phone and sms u... in my mind i only been thinking are u home anot... are u still outside and be careful back home all these.... haiy... guess i am a big big big sha gua ba.... haha...

okok dun dun abt her liao .... i am about to outbreak again... omg... Ya hor... forget to mention that i actually never go for my overseas attachement... regret y i never choose to go... Then mayb you might forget everything about me and happy right now...

For now i actually work for DSC for a month le... they hire mi as their part time for the 3 week then this week then start my actual attachement... haha.. the working environment is rather fun actually and quite slack.. My frenzs there are all very funny and friendly... easy to tok to... hehe... quite lucky ba..

hmmm guess i write alot le ba... that will be all for this post now...

2007-04-27T23:24:00.001-07:00

** FinAlly.... I am able to fit my computer... ** It is not spoil la just that everytime I wanna post a blog hor my computer will have an error. haha... now i am finally able to post something le... =p

For now I am still the same old me who is stuck at the same old problem.. After quite sometime of thinking I am finally able to come out with my plan and what I might going to do next.. Do I might not be able to really do it but I will try.... Everyone who know about my problems seems to tell me the same things. Thanks for all ur reminding and opinion.... Guess I am really stupid afterall...

"What you say and what you do might seem different".... This is what I really feel now...Perhaps you dun haf the courage to face the truth or make a decision.... But is ok... I understand how painful you are feeling... After all the thinking and understanding of you.... and from the pictures I saw from the internet a few days ago really make me feel that you are happy staying with him more than me..who you really need is him and I know and I understand all... After all you all had been together for a long time... been thru alot of pain and happiness....

I always though I am strong but recently then I realise that I am not... Been thru these few months with you I know we have been in pain for most of the time.... Always put you in a very diificult situation.. I am sorry...

After the talk that night i guess probably you will never come out with a decision... Though deep down in my heart I hope you will choose to be with me.... But I guess that will never happen... So since you cannot give me an answer right now I guess I will make a decision for you... a decision made for you because I LOVE YOU..... Please stay happy always.... haiz....

2007-03-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey !!! This is my first post since the account was created for my UIR subject.... Since i have been quite few for these period so i might as well write some journal for my own sake... if gt any problem or feel and shout out i can say it here... haha...

Ok... so since this is my first posting i will say abit of the problem i am facing now ba... is about BGR la... Currently i am quite troubled and bother in my situation now... The girl that i like now currently is attached.... so i feel very bad that i am between their good relation... worse is that i made the girl very confused now... Some of the time i will feel that she is using me only because i treat her quite good i assume... haha... but after some clarification i know that she is not... but not all that i believe... there is still some doubt at times...

At times... she will feel very confuse and cried over our situation... so i will tend to keep on thinking should i let her go... so that she will not be troubled anymore and continue to love her bf.... but some part of me cant let her go... will feel very lost and dont bear to give her ba... (bu she de)... So now even i cant come to a definite decision what i am suppose to do anymore... most of my good friends wil say find others girl ... but i do not know whether i can do it anot... so for now what i hope to do is just to let nature take course ... I will respect any decision she have made... this is the best solution to us 3... i think so...

So after saying about this i will talk about myself... haha... Currently i am waiting for my interview for overseas attachment.... but been waiting for some times le... and still do not know when i will start my attachment... so i also cannot go work... except for weekends... so life is like so shag... staying at home doing nothing.... so right now what i can do i think is to exercise and keep myself fit and try to enjoy my life as much as possible rather than thinking about my BGR... haha... in the past i will... but not now le... because it will just be a waste of time... haha...

hmmm... been talking for a bit le... so this will be it for my first post... haiz... after saying out i will more relieved and feel better... haha.. =p

~~ My LiFe ~~

My LiFe